I am feeling good. I started feeling better last Thursday so it takes about a week for the chemo to work its way through my system and then start to dissapate. I am still ready for bed by 8pm but I feel better during the day. I am able to eat again without feeling overfull with only a few bites.
I had another Lymphic massage this past weekend and this time it did not make me sick. I made sure to drink plenty of fluids after the massage and I think this helped to work out any left over chemo effects. I love massage. The one bad thing about massage is that it has to end sometime.
In December of last year I joined a couple of Lymphoma websites. One site has daily email messages with people writing in on different subjects of Lymphoma, treatments, and life in general. One note was from a father who was writing to ask for help with his son. The son is 40 and just found that that his Lymphoma has returned. He was only in remission for 14 months. I have read the statistics and this is not unusual. It makes me think of my own someday remission and how long it will last. We all pray for a long remission and many people go years without a resurge of their cancer. What will happen to me? It would be easy to focus on the negative and wonder if I will be alive for my youngest son's high school graduation. It takes the same amount of energy to be positive and to picture myself holding my grandchildren. I vote on being positive. I usually do this very well. Sometime when I am driving by myself my eyes tear up and I get a bit overwhelmed. I tell my self to 'suck it up and think of something happy'. I have lots of things in my life that make me happy so thinking of something good is easy.
I have noticed that the more I exercise the more I stay positive; yeah for endorphins.
Many people have told me that I am looking good. I believe them. I have all of my hair, my skin color is good, and I feel good (for the most part). Thanks for all of your support.
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You're such an inspriation! Also they are right, you look great. ~Mary
ReplyDeleteSometimes when I'm driving, I think about what you're going through and I start to cry and have to pull over so I don't cause an accident. I always think that I don't have any right to feel so sad when you are fighting so hard to be positive. I wonder why Bolling women cry in the car? Anyway, it does work to try to replace a negative thought with a positive one, and you know Dr. Kaplan told you there are long, long remissions with this, so my prayer is going to continue to be a long remission followed by a breakthrough in treatment and a cure. I love you.
ReplyDeleteStay strong! I will keep praying for you and your family. Thank you for your honest, informative, and touching blog.
ReplyDeleteNot only do Bolling women cry in cars, they cry at their desk.
ReplyDeleteBrynn, you are so much like Mom. Strong, silent type, always positive and even tempered. Those attributes are amazing. You will kick cancers ass! Not only will you hold your grandchildren, you will hold their children as well.
You are always in my thoughts and prayers.
I love you Sister!!