B and K Castle

B and K Castle
On our wedding day, May 1997

Friday, March 12, 2010

March 12th, 2010

I am in a funk. I have been in one all week. I am finding people annoying. I am not sure if it is the dark weather, the upcoming third chemo treatment, or what. It probably is a combination of things.

Today is Noah's birthday (my middle child) and he is in Ketchikan for a middle school band fest. I would like him home for his birthday. I miss my kids when they are not around.

I am not looking forward to my third chemo treatment. Chemo is my current best friend and I need to keep a good attitude about that. Chemo will help me live longer. I love chemo, I love chemo, I love chemo. I need to say that a few more times during the weekend so I can feel some thankfulness about leaving my family (again) to go get my medicine.

I am looking forward to spending some quiet time at the hotel. I love laying in bed and watching TV. I consider that to be very decadent behavior. I can watch 'girl' things and no one will complain. There, I feel better already; focusing on fun things.

A friend of mine (thanks Kelly) sent me a gift certificate to Nordstrom. I am also looking forward to heading to their downtown department store and spending it. Maybe some new jammies?

After my two days of chemo I am flying further south to Palm Desert, Ca. I am looking forward to some time in the sun, a pedicure, and maybe a new haircut. I also get to spend time with my Dad. We can commiserate together the effects of chemo on our bodies.

I am tired tonight. I will take a long shower, drink some tea, and find a good book to read.

Thanks for reading.

4 comments:

  1. Nolan was helping Noah celebrate! Probably Subway in their future. I'll be praying for you this week as you do the third chemo. Also, while I love "jammies," you know I'll always vote for a new purse! :)

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  2. Hopefully the sunshine will help give you the needed boost, shopping helps too! We'll be praying that this round goes smoothly & that you have a wonderful vacation afterwards.

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  3. I'm with Deidra -- you can really never have too many purses. I hear they're like potato chips ... :) We continue to pray for you daily. Here's a pair of verses for you:

    "I can do everything through him who gives me strength." (Phil. 4:13)

    "And my God will meet all of your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus." (Phil 4:19)

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  4. Enjoy your shopping trip (I vote jammies!)and your time in Palm Springs. There is a radio advertisement here in Juneau for a drawing to Palm Springs and I always think of you! Yes, chemo is your friend. Chemo is your friend. An annoying litle friend, but a helper friend nonetheless.

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